I wanna see it when you find out what comets, moons and stars are all about.

so I finally got myself a job. I'll be working in the falls in the store of the new jimmy buffett's margaritaville. hahaha. it is incredibly funny to me, but hey...at least it's a job. it seems like it's an all right place to work. I went to the job fair expecting to hand out a resume or two and spend no more than 20-30 minutes. my brother and I got there around 10am and didn't leave until about 5pm. I had 3 separate interviews in one day. it was intense. my brother also got a job there, which is sweet considering I'll be needing a ride. I really need to go get my goddamn license.

I am so hungry right now. I ordered a white pizza, 24 wings and cheese garlic bread from angelina's and it should be here any second. I'm going to pig the fuck out. I've never been so excited for food.

it's been a pretty awesome week aside from getting a job. been keeping busy, trying not to drive myself crazy from boredom. being jobless is really, really fucking boring.

spilling wine onto my candy apple knowing that things aren't really ever going to be okay.

hey everyone!

just got back from the vet. we have an amputation scheduled for thursday.

the doctor says that things look pretty promising! it looks as though everything can be cleanly removed with the amputation. she will have more xrays done on her chest (both sides, and view from bottom) to ensure nothing weird is going on in her body. if something does come up on the xrays, then we will reconsider the amputation and see exactly what is taking place. if there is more bad stuff going on in the rest of her body, then we will see what our options are and go from there. but basically, from the other xrays that have been done, it looks as though it is just in her leg.

so yeah! it is good news that something can be done. the vet is really great and I am very happy that something will be taken care of so soon! as far as the costs go, he is calling us on tuesday with an estimate and see what kind of deal he can arrange. I am hoping that it is similar to the estimate the other vet gave me ($2,200CAD) because that is fairly affordable with what we have raised and saved. :)

thank you ALL so much. I will post pictures later today!

I also meant to upload this with the lucy-related entry!

lucy went in for tests yesterday.
they shaved a little patch on her leg. it looks pretty adorable/weird.

xrays showed that the mass is all around her leg-thigh area (you could
see that just by looking at it), and that it might be growing up into
her upper thigh/back area.

blood work came back today. shows that she is anemic/has a low white
blood cell count - which would mean that she has some sort of disease.

friday the aspirate analysis comes back. it will hopefully tell us if
it is cancer and how bad/what kind. it basically looks as though she'll
have to have it amputated no matter what at this point.

also, does anyone know of a good vet around here? I've been taking her
to the welland animal hospital and the vet is a really shitty guy. he
just is weird and I don't feel comfortable. someone who actually seems
like they like animals and is affordable.

why must I always feel so bad about myself?

uhh

my userpic is a baby now.
I did not change it.